Sharing these Good American Leopard jeans today with all of you…and before you think I would never wear those, give me a minute to dive deeper with all of you through sharing a personal story. Scroll down to read my “body” update and why I actually like these jeans! I want to continue to share body positive across my channels and give you guys insight to how I feel about my size from time to time. Life is a journey and there will always be ups and downs!
Okay, now I totally know what y’all are thinking. Most of you are probably thinking these pants are loud and a bit crazy and while I can see how they are not for everyone, hear me out.
I have always loved printed denim but I never thought I would love them on me. Often times, I feel like you see it styled on the 6′ foot model who weighs a number I haven’t weighed for probably fifteen years. She is probably wearing the jeans with a low v-neck tee and maybe a bra peeking out. It looks super cool, super laid back and super chic on her but on me, no way. On my body type, with bigger hips, bigger thighs and a bigger butt, that would simply look ridiculous.
I can recall a very specific moment from sixth grade. There were 7 of us that sat together at lunch. I can recall where everyone was sitting, my girlfriend to the left of me, another to the right of me, another girlfriend diagonal to me, my guy friend across from me etc. Now mind you, these are people I probably have not spoken to in maybe ten years, but this memory is clear as day. One of the guys in the group point blank asked me how much I weighed. I remember feeling so caught off guard and even then feeling embarrassed and feeling so much larger than the other girls in my class. I remember the other girls listed off their jean size and I was mortified.. Growing up, I have always felt “bigger” in comparison to my other friends when I actually was not any bigger in size. In sixth grade, in my mind, size was one thing– it was the number that read on the tags inside my clothes. It didn’t have anything to do with muscle mass, bone structure, genetics, how one feels. I really struggled with that over the years and even through college.
I feel really grateful for having my mom’s continuous love, affection and support. She always encouraged me to do whatever sport I wanted, always told me that size is how you feel and how something fits. We all know sizes vary across different retailers & my mom always said ignore that, think about how it feels on you.
I shared in this post- “My Body Insecurities & How I am Dealing with Them” specific areas of my body that drive me nuts. I almost did not even post those photos because when we got home from shooting and I uploaded them to edit, I remember thinking oh my gosh, I hate how I look in these, I can’t believe I went out in public wearing that on my body, I can’t post them. You may be looking at them and be thinking I am being dramatic but it’s how I feel, and sometimes we can’t help how we feel about something. I wanted to circle back to that exact post here to give you guys a bit of an update.
I have never felt so in shape in my life currently. I feel my body has become more toned, I feel stronger and overall leaner. I am really happy with my results and my body’s shape. Now while I feel I put the work in at the gym, I do feel a lot of this comes from a mental state. I really have made it a priority every single day to look at myself in the mirror and tell myself what I love about my body and to appreciate the progress I have made. I can’t stress enough that your mental state dictates your attitude and can completely derail you from making those positive choices that would otherwise lead to those positive results. When I thought of my body in comparison to my friend in sixth grade that was half my size, (genetically much smaller than me) it prohibited me in thinking about my body as something that was strong and muscular, something that allowed me to do those various sports that I loved. I look back at that lunch memory and while I feel a part of it is just simply growing up and developing your own thoughts and understanding your own feelings, I sit here today and realize when you dwell on something negative you let it rob you of something positive. It’s our choice to how we see ourselves, it’s our choice to use what filter we want on our lives. Is yours positive or negative?
I would have never thought that I would purchase a pair of leopard jeans and actually love how they look on me. But I chose to purchase those jeans to try on (because things aren’t always so scary, so black and white, it’s called returning my friends!) simply because I thought why not give it a try? Sure they look good on that model but maybe they will look good on me too. I have always like printed jeans on others but you know what? Maybe I will like them on me too.
If this post inspires one of you out there then it was well worth sharing. I hope you look at yourselves in the mirror and apply a positive lens. It may not happen every single day, we all have bad days, however, I hope your positivity out weighs your negativity. I hope there isn’t another moment that robs you of a better and brighter one. I hope you try new things and love yourself because of them.
Thank you for stopping by!
xx Brittany Ann
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